You can keep your non-separate self to yourself. You can keep your oneness, your Witness, your Unborn Self to yourself. You can keep your emptiness, your Void, your nothingness, and your pure awareness for yourself.
I have seen/experienced all these things and much much more.
I want ecstatic love. I want realization of the life force within me that Ramana called "spirit." I want to love a woman with all my heart and soul such that when I see her, I drop to the ground and kiss her feet.
There is NOTHING like the ecstasy of total surrender to another, a guru, a Beloved, a cat.
Lying prone on the ground at her feet I feel such equisite liss, so mich so I can't move. I feel like I am in a trance, possessed. My mind is gone. There is only she, and we are one. Wherever she goes, I go as if pull by a tender filament of divine love, Shakti. She too feels like this. Empty, whole, floating like a cloud, entranced by my beingness and devotion to her.
This is divine union. I here am the divine slave of the divine. There is no need anymore to think and calculate what I do next, for I have arrived hom. This depth of devotion is rewarded eventually by God in the form of the life force inside me, first seen as an explosion of light and power arising from deep within my body, and exploding upwards and outwards into the universe.
This should be your training, the training of those who feel God's tugging at your heart. Allow yourself to fall in desperate love whenever an opprtunity arises. Your own life force wants you, the Witness of all things, to know yourself as the Manifest God, and also as human being completely embedded, incarnated in flesh.
And I want to do this over and over until I and everyone in our sanga awakens everyone in the world to the ecstatic bliss of total devotion and surrender, and the flame of devotion is lit in everyones' heart.
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